#crazy that Im still struggling with the undoing of the mental foreshortning

[la-voce-to-me]

Tw for suicidal ideation!

When I was at my lowest thinking I'd die, I spent a lot of time thinking how 10 years past my death my loved ones would be okay. It would hurt initally but they'd be fine. And it only just now, 6 years later, occured to me that I never thought about what if / would become okay in that time frame.

Like obviously depression warps your thinking and I knew that, but it's blowing my mind that it never ONCE occured to me. The mental foreshortning thing is so insidious, and I cant even say that it wouldve helped to have this pointed out to me then, but damn. And I did become okay!! I became (mentally) better like 8 months out from that. Crazy!!!!